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Buzzkill

by postrich bear

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1.
Meg Said 05:09
Meg said I’m losing sleep again Let’s stay up And watch cartoons instead Bad dreams Have been fucking with your head You’re Tossing And turning in your bed Let’s go outside drink our coffee and play Pick up some food for the end of the day Binge watch a show or some anime Go for a drive and watch the world waste away I’ll never make you cry again I love you singing songs about how I’ll die Yeah I love you running laps inside my stupid mind Meg said I’m hoping for the best I still need To get this off my chest Don’t do Something you’ll regret Cause I’ll leave Like a fleeting red sunset Let’s go outside drink our coffee and sing Pick up some fruit and some lemonade I’ll take us home at the end of the day Peek at the stars when I’m closing the shades Hey I love you hugging me so tight that I can’t breathe Yeah I love you swimming through my mind really deep Meg said Come and kiss me on the head
2.
Mooncalf 06:09
Killing time down by the docks You always wear unmatching socks To match how you feel inside Darkened eyes and bitter tea You fall in love with the little things That eat you up inside But I’ve been dreaming I could save A million people from the days they hate themselves And try to be someone else But I can’t even look at my own face And feel I’ve taken up too much space I’m done trying hard to be brave Smoking cigs and downing gin You try to force another grin When you feel dead inside Becomes too hard to hang out with friends Everything now feels like the end It's hard just to leave your bed But I’ve been dreaming I could save A million people from the days they hate themselves And try to be someone else But I can’t even look at my own face And feel I’ve taken up too much space I’m done trying hard to be brave I first noticed your eyes when I was being crucified You were standing nearby waving softly goodbye To someone you have never met before My eyelids got too heavy as I passed out on the floor You nursed me back to health though you were living in hell My sweet dancing vampire queen When I opened up my eyes again to the light You were too far to say goodbye I couldn’t catch up this time
3.
My devil baby likes to hide in the dark Scared that the good times disappear when they start My devil baby don’t like anyone Plays with old matches always looking lonesome How do you feel Like nothing good is real My devil baby’s got red blood shot eyes Really sharp teeth it’s got fingers like knives Obsessed with evil likes a kiss on the cheek But never skips tea time or some good time with me Hey I don’t mind As long as you’re feeling fine I know you can find Something good inside My devil baby come and tear me apart Say that you love me then cut out my heart Burn up my body put me deep in ground As long as you're happy you're still making me proud
4.
Aging Apathy 04:58
Wish I could be someone better Then the person I have been I’ve living by a fault line Trying hard to take it all back Wait I feel strange But I think this comes with age I know I’m not the same Times really made me change Into the things I used to hate Just take me back to when I was so young and innocent Before I felt the need to grow And hollow out into a ghost I’ve been feeling fucking shitty Trying hard just to stay numb Mom told me that it gets better These things pass as you grow up Wait I still feel strange Will this ever pass with age I know I’m not the same Times really made me change Into a sack of nostalgic shit Just take me back to when I still felt like I could win Cause it’s been loss after fucking loss And I keep forgetting to floss Guess I’m scared of what will happen Never thought much on what a next
5.
Lonely City 02:56
I grew up in a city Where everyone tries to disappear They try to go somewhere warmer Or just really far away from here Well I’ve kept their secrets in the bedrock Cause I’m still hanging around this town And when people come back to visit It’s always when the rains not pouring down Please don’t leave me now Cause I’m scared of traveling on I really love this town Even when everybody’s gone And I know things will change And that nothing can stay the same But I wish I could keep it all in place Before everyone goes away Please don’t leave me now Cause I’m scared of traveling on And I really love this town Even when everybody’s gone Lonely City
6.
I saw your body falling fast from the sky I was walking home stupid From drinking that night I saw all of the stars Burning up there so bright You just came for a second To say your last goodbye like you do Maybe heavens cruel maybe heaven is just I don’t know what do My hearts filling up with rust Just hug all of your family And all of you friends Everyday you get up Cause someday it will end Don’t you know Time isn’t kind it’s been killing my friends I’ve been floating down this river but can’t get around the bend Feeling empty and cold with this hole in my chest But I don’t need a heart to fall in love again Fill up your lungs man Just take a deep breath It will all be ok You can clean up this mess You can stand through the storm You can laugh off the pain You can’t swim the damn ocean But you can ride that wave like you do Just pick up your feet man Keep on walking on It don’t have to end here You can make it last long if you want You can stop and watch the world go by Take a second to sit And rest your tired eyes Won't you please Time isn’t kind it’s been killing my friends I’ve been floating down this river but can’t get around the bends Feeling empty and cold with this hole in my chest But I don’t need a heart to fall in love again
7.
I can’t open my eyes I’ve been feeling dead Fucking empty inside But when you Make breakfast for me I’ll always get out of bed And take my coffee with cream It just gets so hard sometimes Just to simply be alive Cause these days I’ve been feeling like a ghost most of the time I’ve been smoking and cigs and trying to drive 109 headed south down the lonely I-5 Hoping that I crash But I’m not sure that I wanna die It’s been long fucking nights with tv turned on It’s been long fucking fights with myself and this song As I play my guitar And put off important things It just gets so hard sometimes When your life keeps passing by And you can’t keep up with changes over time I will shout away all my worries and fears I will shout away all my self doubting tears And the thoughts in my head That seem to strangle me I will sleep away this bad passage of time I will sleep away all my worries and sighs And I will dream of some better happy days Just know that I love you Even when I don’t ask for help And I’m so sorry I get caught up in hating myself It’s just gets so hard sometimes Just simply be alive Cause these days I’ve been feeling like a ghost most of the time
8.
I was sitting It was quiet In the lounge where you stole my heart like a pirate Was it evil Was it unconscious That we didn’t care what lies beyond this Sweet lips and swinging hips We had fun Too much fun Lounging naked in the sun It’s getting dark out Yet I linger On the feeling that you to might be eager We can meet up For a cocktail You can tell me all about your silly folk tales Sweet lips and swinging hips Eating plums And making love Lounging naked in the sun
9.
Walking to your house in the pouring rain Trying to find out what I’m gonna say To make you feel better and all okay Heard you been down and feeling pain Tell me what you think about the world we know Tell me everywhere that you wanna go Do you ever feel sad and all alone Wish you had somewhere else to go Well I’m not like them I won’t make you sink or swim Just tell me that you feel the same I like it when you’re sleeping here next to me Do ever dream about real scary things If you ever wake up and need some peace I’ll make you some pizza and sleepy tea Let’s stay up all night watching cartoons You’ll drink some wine and I’ll drink some too Then we’ll take a walk and look at the stars Take a rocket up to planet mars Well I’m not like them I won’t make you sink or swim Just tell me that you feel the same
10.
I Don't Mind 02:24
If you changed up your wardrobe And cut off your hair Said your unhappy And need far from here I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind As long as you’re mine If you left me in Salem To rot and decay But came back in spring time To plant me again I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind Wait I don’t know what to do Where should I plant all my roots Stay or I’m coming with you I’ll grow wherever you choose I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind I don’t mind As long as you're mine
11.
My Dog 04:30
Running through the grass in the backyard You were king As you’d lay out in the sun It’s been hard watching you get old Your bones get fragile There’s more grey around your nose Don’t you cry Cause I know I’ll cry When you die And I know that all dogs go to heaven So they say But I want you to stay To lick my face when I’m crying And I’m down Can’t you always stick around You kept me warm in the winters Laying on my feet You loved to lay underneath All the blankets that you chewed up When you were young In the litter you were the runt And when you sing It’s been harmony And don’t you leave And I know that all dogs go to heaven So they say But I want you to stay To lick my face when I’m crying And I’m down Can’t you always stick around Buffon I love you you’re my dog Buffon I love you you’re my dog Buffon I love you you’re my dog Buffon I love you you’re my dog
12.
Hey I just thought you should know I walked six long hard hours through the snow Just to find out you weren’t even home I wish we still talked sometimes Split some stories and tequila and lime You can tell how dumb I used to be And I know we have to grow up I’m just scared that I’m lacking so much I can’t swim or feel that I’m enough I heard you got your degree You’ve seen more of the world then I’ll see I’m still stuck in the same town Don’t feel bad for me when you come around Hey I’ll be okay Hey I’ll be okay Hey I know it’s not the same Hey I hate all the change I hope that you’re still happy Singing loud through the fields and the trees I hope that you remember me It’s not like everything was meant to be
13.
I’ve been hiding out for days In my bed trying hard to escape From everything that makes me think to much Until I’m stuck in a rut Can’t you share some sympathy I feel like I can’t fucking breathe It’s been raining on my head As I walk to work feeling like I’m dead And everyone and everything that passes me by Makes me feel something So I’ll throw up my hands and start running fast I hope it lasts
14.
BFF BBQ 05:38
Memories of waves crashing over me Cold summer days playing down on the old south beach We were too young to understand We were to busy letting sand slip through our hands We never cared much about growing old We were too busy trying look cool while we smoked It’s been a long time since I spoke to you Seasons came and went and you stayed were you had moved I sank my fangs into anything to slow down time Though were no longer moving forward I suspect we’re on the same deadline I chugged wine when you drove away To live where the sea’s a different name Dead flowers are all that remain In a place that now feels quite strange Falling off the edge at 23 Wishing I could be swinging from your old oak tree Tell me all about possibilities Tell me something quick cause I’m feeling lost at sea I sank my fangs into anything to slow down time Though were no longer moving forward I suspect we’re on the same deadline I chugged wine when you drove away To live where the sea’s a different name Dead flowers are all that remain In a place that now feels quite strange
15.
Kuma 04:15
Waffles in the morning As you slow dance inside my head Please don’t look back When you can look ahead Can’t change the dead past We just can chase regrets You know I love it when you say Baby come over Hell I could be there everyday I’ll take that chip your shoulder You’ll toss and turn but you won’t sink Ain’t it funny ain’t it strange How we’re getting older I get more achy by the day And body’s feeling colder These changes might kill me someday Wait tell me you don’t mind If we go chasing waterfalls And gogo dancing through the night I get more fucked up everyday With the way that you love me I’m stuck to you won’t go away That’s why you still call me honey Together in this hunk of mess we made But wait tell me you don’t mind If we go chasing waterfalls And gogo dancing through the night Kuma Just know I love you I got some sad eyes But you got some sadder tunes Tell me what you want And I’ll get it for you Kuma just call me I could use some good news
16.
Swan Song 04:26
It’s a marathon Trying to carry on When everyday I’ve been stumbling Please ramble on I love it when you talk It lets me escape from my thoughts I border on Laughing like a clown And jumping in a lake to drown Sing a song About a whistling swan Who never got the chance to fly Got too distracted trying to die Dragon ball I need morning cartoons And sugar on my buttered toast Stick my hand Out the open window And pretend I’m flying through the wind What I’d give to be a kid again So withdrawn From my friends these days No wonder no one ever asks me out I’m living on What feels like borrowed time On a long stretch of empty road That used to be the only way back home I can’t escape Feeling like a blue boy about to break Out staring at the stars Wishing I could be as strong as your are I can’t escape Feeling like a blue boy about to break Out staring at the stars Wishing I could be as strong as your are Won’t be long Until my swan song Won’t be long Until my swan song
17.
Blood on my shirt I’ve been running for years Now it hurts just to be Somewhere I can sit still and just breathe I tried my best Just to wait until it all made sense Life flying by And forever seems like a waste of time. I’m still feeling strange As the world begins to change It’s so hard to remain Where nothing stays the same Things that make you cry And things you try to hide They surface and they rise When you think about your life And I love all my friends Even though I know someday our love will end And I love my stupid life Even though I know it gets so hard sometimes

about

I wrote this collection of songs over the last few years and recorded them on audacity throughout 2018/2019 in various locations around Oregon.

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released March 8, 2019

All songs written, recorded, mixed, and performed by Andy Alvarez
All trumpet tracks were performed by Matthew Mischke
Additional vocals were added by Megan Blankenship
Cello on "I Don't Mind" was done by Ian Hammerquist
Thank you Bryan Kennedy for letting me use your drum set for this album
Thank you to my family for putting up with me making so much noise around your house, Dad, Mom, Cris, Buffon, I love you!
Thank you Joey Gomez for taking pictures of me to use for promo.
Thank you to all my friends, this one's for you, all of you.

Thank you to everyone that has attended a show or gave my music a chance it means an awful lot. I hope you guys like this one <3

Album mastered by Azimuth Mastering

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