I used to cry With my gameboy on Play through the night Catching Pokémon It was the best I felt But now I’m someone else Catch up on sleep I’ve been feeling weak It’s hard to be The best parts of me I can’t control myself I just wanted help Say that I’m Sorry For all I’ve undone Lay back and breathe out As a gaze at the sun Pretty days like this Make me miss being a kid Put your knuckles up Cause life beats you down If you’ve had enough don’t get up off the ground Take what I can get I’m not one to win Summertime feeling ugly Eating chocolate and gummies Stupid me always crumbling See the pain but feels nothing

Mud in your socks You’ve been thinking bad thoughts again Like you shouldn’t be here Blood soaked on the cross Said you’d never sin again River swiftly take me Driving in your car Swerving round the bend again Your brown eyes closed tightly Laying under the stars Tell me what you want to be I know your gonna make it far But for now won’t you just hold me in your arms I used to love everything I used to be more happy I used to want to be a good friend I wanna be a good friend Just wanna be a good friend Just wanna be a good friend Just wanna be a good friend

Remember when it felt like heaven Buying beer at 7-11 Getting drunk on the weekdays Now we just think about those days Running through the fields of Hubbard Driving fast and burning rubber Smoking out of apples and tinfoil Pissing on a church sorry gargoyle I’ve been feeling not all there Cowboy highway prayer Took a trip out on the west side 101, crab, and a dirty knife Sang along to some old tunes Blew some smoke and thought about you Stumbled to a bar in downtown Legs wouldn’t work so I sat down Bartend asked what did I drink I Said some tequila and lime please I’ve been feeling not all there Cowboy highway prayer My heart feels like a rust bucket But I still love I just say fuck it Running up the holy mountain Lost something there I hope I find it I’ve been feeling not all there Cowboy highway prayer I’ve been feeling not all there Cowboy highway prayers

City lights looking so lonely City lights why are you so far from me Brighter now then ever before The way you shine makes me want more Hazy glow from backstreet balcony’s Let’s me know someone is waiting for me Reds and greens and yellows too Leading me always back to you Damage done dirty bloody mess Something hurts deep inside my chest Silly heart beats quickly now Flutter fast whenever your around City lights looking so lonely City lights why are you so far from me

I could love this forever Sitting here sipping under Starshine I know it’s hard to keep together When everyone wants you to feel better Oh but it’s hard to change You know that your the one to blame But you hate it more that you’ve been feeling the same Ghosts keep you up at night Memory’s you tried to hide Deep inside where you could never find the light You know I used to come through And you know I used to love too But you know that I can’t feel blue Cause no one likes you when you do Catch me falling under moonlight Lay my head where it feels all right I’ve been running every Monday Wonder if you’ll notice me running someday

Only you can me feel like I’m not lonely Staring at me like I’m something fucking holy Some kind of hero that you’d always miss But I would never ever let you be like this Watching anime and laying down on the couch When I don’t show you just always seem to lounge around Smoking weed and hanging with your friends For you I hope that it never ends You’re way bigger now With nothing to hold you down I know that you’ll be Way better then I could ever be Sorry I was fighting with my body You were only 12 and I was always fucking sobbing I should've stuck around with you way more At home so you never had to ever feel alone Call me I’m still here if you need me to solve things Get you when you find yourself crawling I can be some hero if you need But I know you’re big enough to spread your wings Proud of you and all that you are doing Got your own own life make sure you keep on moving Be the person that you wanna be I’ll be here if you ever need me You’re way bigger now With nothing to hold you down I know that you’ll be Way better then I could ever be Sorry I was fighting with my body You were only 12 and I was always fucking sobbing I should've stuck around with you way more At home so you never had to ever feel alone Only you can me feel like I’m not lonely Staring at me like I’m something fucking holy Some kind of hero that you’d always miss But I would never ever let you be like this

Sweet sonatine and spark I’m laying in the dark Watching moving trying to get off and then start Fuck off everyone I gave it all I’ve got Now I wanna sleep because my head hurts a lot You tried to be my friend But I made sure it would I fucked up so forget everything I ever said If we go grab that drink Would you play Bruce Springsteen Get so drunk make sure it plays all night on repeat I wish I could be always dreaming Everyone there seems to be so happy I wish I didn’t know this was real To escape feeling how I really feel Sweet sonatine and spark I’m laying in the dark wishing I could make new friends not have to restart

You used to laugh with your hands at your side Awkward kid who never felt quite right You used to play kingdom hearts all day Pretend that you were a star with the songs you made But you could never be Who you wanted to be When you were 16 Man we had some wild dreams I’ve been feeling like a time bomb every night Cause it’s always bad dreams until I close my eyes And then wake in the morning drink my stupid coffee Yeah this can’t be fine I’ve been running for a lifetime on my own Singing stupid songs to a telephone For a hotline operator says you should be sleeping Well I’ve been up all night Watching sad movies and playing drinking games Realize some have it good and others just feel pain You just play your guitar everyday Life’s just been okay but let’s not start again You could never be Who you wanted to be When you were 16 Living on some crazy dreamz I’ve been feeling like a time bomb every night Cause it’s always bad dreams until I close my eyes And then wake in the morning drink my stupid coffee Yeah this can’t be fine I’ve been running for a lifetime on my own Singing stupid songs to a telephone For a hotline operator says you should be sleeping Well I’ve been up all night