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2. |
Small Talk Prodigy
04:48
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Hey mom I've been feeling strange
Bad thoughts keep flooding my brain
I can't sleep through one single night
Bad dreams and nightmares until I die
Hey dad help me to understand
How to always stop feeling so sad
I don't want to be moping around
I'm just so tired of feeling down
Little brother see that you've been growing up
Don't let life get you down too much
Just remember being young
Watching movies and laying on the rug
Hey Buffon you're my favorite dog
But I know your life don't last too long
Just hold out for a few more years
Cause loosing you is one of my biggest fears
Life's always moving too fast
No wonder you always hold onto the past
When it seems like you're getting cold
They'll say grow up kid i'm told
You still try your best sometimes
Yes I know you've been feeling tired
Just a bit of death around your eyes
Cause growing up looks like a waste of time
You still cry yourself to sleep sometimes
Yes I know you've been feeling tired
Just a bit of death around your eyes
Cause growing up looks like a waste of time
You still try your best sometimes
Yes I know you've been feeling tired
Just a bit of death around your eyes
Cause growing up looks like a waste of time
You still feel alone sometimes
Yes I know you've been feeling tired
Just a bit of death around your eyes
Cause growing up looks like a waste of time
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3. |
April 24th, 2017
02:11
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Well I love when you think about me
as I play my stupid songs
and somebody sings along
and I love when you're looking right at me
when i'm scared to death on stage
I get real nervous when I play
and I try to practice all the words i'm gonna say
when I get to talk to you
so I come off really cool
and when I see you I tend to walk the other way
cause I get really afraid
i'll fumble the words I wanna say
cause you seem so rad
and with these things i'm pretty bad
I don't know why it's hard to say
any word to your face
And I wrote this song for you to hear while you stir
A spoon in your drink i'd love to hear what you think
I'd luv to hear what you think
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4. |
Baby Blue
03:57
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Oh girl lean into me
Say I'm anything
To me your everything
And darling i'm here on my knees
Begging please oh please
Oh yeah my baby blue
How I need you
Darling what should I do
So you need me too
Oh girl when you walk my way
I don't know what to say
Just to make you stay
And darling if you need then I will be
Whatever you want or whatever you decree
Baby you're like a dream
Just like make believe
When I see you leave
Cause it's only real when your next to me
And make my heart skip every beat
Oh yeah my baby blue
How I need you
Darling what should I do
So you need me too
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5. |
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I really love it here
I'm just scared i'll disappear
Cause it's just like me
To always be leaving
I really love when you speak
It distracts me from all of the bad things
And when I see you smile
Time always freezes here for just a little while
That's all right with me
Cause these days I feel so old
my childhood friends are losing hope
Scared there's no place for us
As our hearts slowly fill up with rust
I found comfort in your room
While laying on the floor and talking to yu
When I drove home I cried
Cause I would slowly start to leave your life
Somethings we'll always regret
Now we're talking again
Just like back when we we're friends
I'm really trying to take it slow
Cause I tend to lose control
I Find it hard to say
How I feel to you face to face
I'm not even sure if it's real
Cause I've been getting shit faced instead of trying to heal
When i'm sober I will say
Carry me
Marry me
Bury me
Please
Cause i'm scared soon there'll be nothing left
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6. |
Stumbling
03:40
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Stumbling through the days
Dreaming it'll all be okay
Such a shame when you're no longer feeling the same
Always crumbling down
Never talking out loud
Disappear at the sound
Of you coming around
Loosing track of time
Oh wait a few years have gone by
You're still living a lie
Pretending that you're fine
Feeling so far away
From a pain that you crave
Never feeling the same
Never feeling...
You're all I think about
Singing a tomb for you now
So strung out
Wishing you were still around
Please don't try to save me
I sabotaged my life from the start
Tried to give you a few years
But you just let time come tear that apart
And i'm not my thoughts
Tell myself I am not
All the evil inside of my head
Just let me rot
Be the things you forgot
I'll just fuck up my life till the end
You're all I think about
Singing a tomb for you now
Feeling down
And wishing you were still around
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7. |
Down By The Docks
03:10
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Down by the docks
I lost my friend
We cried a lot
Now they're drifting down around the bend
What to do
When I lost my way
Stuck in the past
With all my demons and my old ways
How I wish I could cry
It's been awhile since I cried
And how I wish I could cry
I had a love
But now they are gone
Ran far away
While I was sleeping drunk upon a lawn
All alone
drinking for two
I'll pour you glass
In case you ever come back to this fool
How I wish I could cry
It's been awhile since I cried
And how I wish I could cry
I'd sell my soul
For one shot at fame
Hell i'd sell my soul
For just a bit of food here on my plate
Take my bones
And all of my blood
Take all my hope
I'm just tired of being so damn broke
How I wish I could cry
It's been awhile since I cried
And how I wish I could cry
Up on the hills
You flew away
With wind in your hair
Moonlight pressed against your gentle face
There I cried
For the first time
Since you said goodbye
Back when I could look you in the eyes
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8. |
Peters
04:42
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I'll take you to Aberdeen to see the man you need
I know he's dead girl but i'll revive him with a bit of wizardry
And i'll rip holes in my jeans
And grow my hair down to my jeans
In case if you ever need
In your travels some company
And I know that you're more than fine alone
Living life just like a rolling stone
If you find that somewhere down the road
You want a beast of burden to shake your bones
Make you laugh and make you cry
Sing about a blackbird in the dead of night
Well I hope that you know that i'm willing to try
But I sure respect if i'm not that guy
But damn
Oh damn
You're so cool the way you stand
And sometimes don't smile on instagram
You like the classics like Stevie Nicks
And rock out to Jimi Hendrix
And I saw you watching a 30's silent film
And I couldn't help but feel all these feeling that felt so real
Though they are feelings I should probably kill
Sometimes online I see your arguments
When you get heated about politics
I think it's groovy hilariously cool
Hell if it was a game you'd write the rules
And I know that it's no fair of me
To sing about these lines that you don't believe
So I would like to apologize with this next verse especially
Like i know I've only said 10 real words to you
Like I "heard you like Jake Bugg well I think that's cool"
And you're totally rad
And this songs probably bad
Cause you most likely think this is totally sad
Like hey man who the flying fuck are you
To write a song about me in your room
To the same four chords as Wonderwall
Oh you're such a poser another brick in the wall
But damn
Oh Damn
You're so cool the way you stand
And sometimes don't smile on instagram
You like the classics like Stevie Nicks
And rock out to Jimi Hendrix
And I saw you watching a 30's silent film
And I couldn't help but feel all these feeling that felt so real
Though they are feelings I should probably kill
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9. |
Cocaine California Cry
05:15
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Well I left you in California
When you said that I wasn't the one
And you held my hand so tightly and said
"Oh but Darling you're the one I love"
And I don't want to grow old
Cause I know that mean we'll grow apart
But I know that sometime
somewhere down the line
we will get one more chance to restart
Oh And I hope you end up happy
Cause i'm tired of hearing you cry
Oh you call me up at 3am
And say "I can't get a grip on this life"
So i'll take you out for coffee
And we'll drive to the hills out west
And we'll stare at city lights
All through the night
As the sky slowly gets undressed
But what could I say
To make it all okay
And tell me every word
You need to hear so you don't feel hurt
Well you don't call anymore
And now you're passed out on somebodies floor
And you don't give a fuck or a shit about love
Last time we talked you said "grow the fuck up"
Oh cause i'll die at 27
Heard there's a club that can't get to heaven
Oh and if you ever need relief
Just grab a lighter paint it white and breathe
But what could I say
To make it all okay
And tell me every word
You need to hear so you don't feel hurt
Well I saw you here last winter
And we talked just like time had froze
And I looked you in the eyes and said that I loved you the same
You grabbed my hands and you said "I know"
But our love was for a different time
And like every good thing it too will pass
But i'll hope and i'll hope with all of my might
That a part of us gets to last
Oh that a part of us gets to last
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10. |
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Fucked up again
Alone in my bed
You've been on my mind
Memories fill up my head
And someday you'll die
I'll bet it's heaven that waits
But we're still alive
And I find it hard to say
You're just like heaven to touch
Man I miss you so much
Brush your hands through your hair
You pretend not to care
Demons dance all around
As yah lay on the ground
And man I miss you these days
And I will sing
Every word that you need
For when you can't sleep
And it's comfort you seek
And I will cry
Whenever you're feeling pain
It'll all be okay
Cause i'll take all the blame
You're just like heaven to touch
Man I miss you so much
with your smile and your laugh
Man I want it all back
Back when we felt alive
Cause we're both dead inside
And hell I miss you these days
Damn I miss you these days
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11. |
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Always said hey boy you'll do great things
And make it out with the funny way you sing
But i'm still in this town pissing around
While my friends are leaving
it's just chronicles of young failure for me
I still have some paper mache bird you made
I keep it around to remind me of better days
Now i'm stuck in this place I can't escape
That used to feel like home
But everybody's left and i'm all alone
And hey man I miss you and the way things used to be
Way back when I was so young and you cared for me
So i'll say hey man I'm sorry
I wasted all your time
I know you're moving on without me
And that's just fine
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12. |
Bound To Fold
03:27
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Heaven please
Wake me from this dream
It's too good to be real
Must be fantasy
Cause when you;'re next to me
I can feel everything
And as my heart pumps blood
All I do is think of you
Singing your name
Alone by the river bank
Waiting for a flood
to come and carry me away
You once asked
Are you worth your weight in gold
Well I aint worth shit i'm just getting old
Memories
Are all i'll ever need
Cause I don't like what's real
I prefer fantasy
Say my name in vain
Cause it only brings you pain
And I will go away
So you don't take the blame
Whisper your name
When you pass me at the bank
Smile when I say
You still look at me the same
Suicide pact at 15 years old
But just like paper in the wind
We were bound to fold
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13. |
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Cross out my name
From your bed frame
So you don't have to think
About me when you sleep
Cause it' no the same
With us these days
When you pass by
You always look the other way
I'm partly to blame
Cause I ain't a saint
Just a thorn in your side
Oh an always constant pain
But I still believe
Someday we could be
Friends just like when we were young and happy
But if it's not meant to be
Then you will find me
Gasping for air at the bottom of the sea
Cause I can't really swim
But when you're away in Lisbon
I'll fight the currents
Oh but surely won't win
Set me to flames
I'll burn at the stake
Repent for all of our sins
And all our mistakes
The older we get the less we will talk
The older we get the less i'll cross your thoughts
The less i'll cross your thoughts
But in my thoughts you still smile a lot
Yeah in my thoughts you still smile a lot
Yeah in my thoughts you still smile a lot
Yeah in my thoughts you still smile a lot
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14. |
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What the hell happened here
I thought that this was gonna be my year
And now i'm spending every night on my couch
Popping pills into my mouth
To pass the time
And she's been trying to forget
Well everything we ever did
You should dig oh the past out from your head
You'll be better off instead
She said
She said Somewhere there's a place
Where you'll be better off someday
But i'm scared that I won't find peace of mind
And it's my bad health i'll find
Down the line
And I've been walking for a day
11 hours in the rain
But I won't let this dying body break
Until I know this is the place
Until I know this is the place
This is the last song I will sing
With bad thoughts on my mind
And this is the last time I will be
Oh the one that's left behind
If you try to hard to find heaven
It's hell you'll find
If you try to hard to find heaven
Oh it's hell you'll find
And I said Hey man don't you worry
Cause I think we'll be fine
And I said hey man what's the hurry
We still got a little time
Before we die
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15. |
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Sometimes I want to disappear
Cause these days man I really hate it here
My friends are all growing up
And I just keep fucking up
Last week I found myself upon the floor
Too weak to get myself out the door
Maybe I should just give it up
Stay here and Disappear for a month
But I love you
Yeah I love you
Yeah I love you
I just don't love me
Dear me get your shit together please
And spend more time with your family
Someday everybody's gonna die
And you'll be wishing that you had more time
Pain please purge me here passivly
Knee deep in some twisted fantasy
Dark eyes cause I can't ever sleep
Up late rejecting all my human needs
But I love you
Yeah I love you
Yeah I love you
I just don't love me
Dear love I know i'll never be enough
And i'll find a way to fuck it up
I'm scared of being close to anyone
So I tend to disappear and run
Kill me before I start to get to old
Kill me before my stupid life erodes
Kill me I want just to disappear
I'm scared and I want to disappear
But I love you
Yeah i love you
Yeah I love you
I just don't love me
I just don't love me
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16. |
Sueña Conmigo
02:46
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Dream of me
When you're away in Mexico
And i'm stuck with life's undertows alone
Here at home
You'll be drinking margaritas and beer
I'll be waiting here by the door
To say bésame por favor
Think of me
When you're dancing down on the coast
Moonlight shines down on your nose I love
Hope you're having fun
I wish I was with you porque
Me haces falta
Sueña Conmigo
Sueña Conmigo
Sueña Conmigo
Sueña Conmigo
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17. |
Regret
03:30
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I really wanted to but I couldn't say goodbye
Cause I had already wasted so much of your time
And I feel bad for leaving you
All alone against the world while I tried to
Become someone better than me
But once again like always I didn't succeed
And i'm sorry
I left you here just to wilt away as you cried
But I know you will bloom again before you die
And I just miss looking in your eyes
When you used to tell me everything would be all right
And now when I look in any stupid mirror
All I see is someone holding back their tears
And i'm sorry
So i'll cry a little bit at night
Cause I know everything won't be all right
You can never unfuck the past
All you can do is try to make the good times last
So i'll cry a little bit at night
Cause I know everything won't be all right
you can never unfuck the past
You can only try your best to take it back
So i'll cry a little bit at night
Cause I know everything won't be all right
You can never unfuck the past
All you can do is try to make the good times last
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18. |
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Someday
I will call you
When I'm 80
And say that I miss you
And maybe
You'll be happy
Oh to hear my voice
When we've grown old
And on the phone we will go...
Don't give up
I know it's not easy
But I know these things
Will all fall in place
And some night
When i'm 60
I hope you show up at my door
And kiss me on the face
And our lips will go...
These days
It's been raining
And someday
When i'm 40
I hope you drown me in our local creek
And as I gasp for air I will go...
Right now
You're probably at home
And I wonder if you still feel alone
If it's that way
You can call me
I'd love to hear all about your day
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19. |
Depression Generation
05:12
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Glitter sparkles on your eyelids
You're popping pills here just for fun
Trying hard to forget what you've done
Depression generation they all sung
Lost someone you used to love
They blew their brains out with a gun
You cried for hours laying there in the mud
Depression generation bring the drugs
But wait
Will I make it
Past the age of 23
When I got no money
Or health insurance guaranteed
Spend all day smoking in your bed
Try to fumigate the demons in your head
And cut all ties with the people who try
To help you when you're sad
You just self destruct
Cause you don't give a fuck
Feeling everything's all bad
Getting fucked up in the morning
Before you have to face the day
It's the only way you ever feel okay
Depression generation who's to blame?
Heard you've been feeling lots of pain
Your body hurts, your heart aches
You just want to talk to someone who relates
Depression generation they all hate
But wait
Will I make it
To the age of 69
When it's so damn easy
to find a quicker way to die
Spend all day smoking in your bed
Try to fumigate the demons in your head
And cut all ties with the people who try
To help you when you're sad
You just self destruct
Cause you don't give a fuck
Feeling everything's all bad
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20. |
C.R.L
01:49
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Corinna was my favorite friend
But now we don't even talk
I never thought it would end
She's the reason I don't match my socks
And I hope someday she will be
Oh the happiest human being
Cause I sure love to see her smiling
Though these days it's only in my dreams
And hey don't cry
Man i swear it'll be all right
Just dry your eyes
And i'll take you home tonight
And tell you this
it's been awhile since we held hands
Heard you got yourself a brand new man
I hope he's everything you need
Fucking hell he better be
It's been awhile since you've called me scout
What the hell is that about?
When I write you I still call you champ
But these days you never write me back
And when I die
Will I even cross your mind
Or will you try
Oh to find me in another life
And tell me this...
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21. |
It's Okay To Not Be Okay
01:47
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Room in my closet to hang everything but me
Bruised up knuckles running off two hours of sleep
Moonlight shined down as tears ran along your cheek
And I just stood there as I watched all the years leave
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22. |
West Coast Blues
04:12
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You were gone for a month while I slept on the couch
Trying hard not to dream trying hard not to think
About all the bad things that could happen today
I've been in a dark palce
Full of nightmares and pain
Shine some light on me
I've been feeling pretty weak and the futures looking bleak
Shine some light on me
It's just so hard to speak
When heavy words make you sink
You were dancing with dreams on the opposite side
Of the country where you took a stab at your life
Found how fragile our bones and our bodies can be
Well at least there it's warm
By the Atlantic sea
Shine some light on me
I've been freezing fucking col over on the West coast
Shine some light on me
It's been buckets of rain here in sweet Oregon state
Dracula's dead dancing daughter
Don't dance with me no more on dangerous waters
Petrified purely by pain
Prettiest girl pirouettes off the stage
Please just give me more time
I just needed more time
Shine some light on me
I've been feeling fucking weak and the futures looking bleak
Shine some light on me
it's been dark damp and cold over on the West coast
Shine some light on me
It's been buckets of rain here in sweet Oregon state
Shine some light on me
Hate when things start to change I can only stay the same
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23. |
Ghost
05:54
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Ghost I could really use a friend
Cause lately I've been such a mess
And I can't seem to forget
All the bad things I did
Please I could use some company
I haven't gone out in weeks
Just been laying by the kitchen sink
Throwing up everything I eat
I can't stomach another loss
So i'll bike down to the docks
Sit alone the waters edge
Take a plunge i'll probably regret
But the world looks so good from beneath
As I slowly start to sink
And as the weight fills over me
I find it really hard to breathe
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24. |
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Please help me remember
All of the good days
They're fading away
Along with old memories
These days I can’t recall a smile from your face
Maybe this is better
Cause you just think of me as a past mistake
Wish I was still sixteen
Sharing shit slurpees
And feeling no pain
But time moves slowly and i’ll just sit here as I break
Call me tell me i’m glad you care but it’s too late
These days she can’t sleep
She barely can eat
Anxiety rips her to shreds
Just forget what we said and come lay in my bed
We’ll drink and forget it instead
But I know soon you gotta go
I don’t mind i’m used to it on my own
I got real good at being alone
But I hope that you know
You can always call me here on the phone
I don’t care what it is let me know
Though i’m just some old memory at most
you’ll always find me here on the west coast
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